I have been waiting for this day to come where I actually passed my so-terribly-tiring-and-exhausting-third-year of BPharm! Alhamdulillah feeling macam dah habis degree hahaha my third year sangatlah menyeksakan and please I dont wanna repeat it again. Result pun walaupun tidaklah seindah mana namun lulus semua subjek. So which of the favors of your Lord would you deny? :') Although I know I did not focus on my final exam so much huhu
So yeah sudah lah berhuhu and lets have a recap on what I have been doing in my third year. Kena lah ingat penat lelah dan perit jerih kehidupan kan so that we will always appreciate what we have today.
Paling takkan dilupakan, the struggle of FINAL YEAR PROJECT. Nama je lah final year tapi kalau bpharm uitm ni kena buat time third year. I dont know why they want to compress everything during this third year dengan subjek subjek yang mencabar ni alahai. So my FYP is not on lab work but on clinical basis. My research is a qualitative one using questionnaire and I need to find respondents about 300 ++. But the best part is that I learn a lot through out the process. Since my SV jenis yang suruh cari information sendiri, I think that is where I learnt the best. I can understand now how to do a research and how to write dissertation as well. Together with how to produce a good poster presentation juga. Thank you madam Ez you are the best sv ever! Although FYP is like a nightmare but I enjoy doing it because it is something that I always look for since my first year. Alhamdulillah managed to get an A+ for research I and research II. Its something that I can always be proud of :')
MyPSA Public Health Officer equals ME. I love to do something that can challenge my capabilities so that is one of the reason I took this position although we are already warned of how hectic third year will be. Well, at first I thought that I can go through this although it surely will not be easy but I thought that I can survive. I have high self confidence sometimes :p But.....there were times that I cant managed even myself. And it is not once or twice but I remember it was like more than few times that I feel like wanna run away from all these things. I cant even handle stress anymore like I used to. Its when everything come at once and all I wanna do is to walk away. But Alhamdulillah again I dont know where the strength comes from but I actually survived this one year! Double triple yeay! I enjoyed working with all the people I met and surely I can build up a good rapport with so many important people. Here comes the advantages of being MyPSA Excos ;)
Love Hate Relationship? No its not a love hate relationship actually but third year (semester 6 to be precise) really plays around with my emotions. I struggle with my studies, my works as well as my heart. I watched people come and go and how people can be so mean at times. I am so grateful to be surrounded with beautiful souls around me whom I know will always be there for me. How you deal with memories and how you deal with people who self proclaimed to be 'treating you nicely' where actually they dont. Well, I live with quote that 'everyone do not have the same way of thinking as you'. So that is actually keeping me to be tolerate with everything. Now, I really wanted to focus on my studies and improving myself . Until that 'sparks' to be live again, I would rather have a relationship with my own self. Preparing for a better future for myself and my family. And reserving myself until the right time comes.
Till we meet in the next entry, xoxo!